You've heard the song that goes,
"Life's a dance, ya learn as ya go....somtimes ya lead....sometimes ya follow..."
That's been on my mind a lot lately-
Maybe I'm just learning right now- I don't know.
Seems like everything that has been....no longer is~
A houseful of kids, school schedules...
All the things that I've done for the past 30 years are suddenly-
(o.k. not suddenly, but still sorta quickly), changing.
I haven't had the choice to have lunch with a friend at my convenience
for at least 30 yrs! Now all of a sudden I do!
I can shop when it suits me-
Now rather than buying crayons(no- I didn't buy Luke crayons for school this year or last or...)
I'm buying fabric & trim and other fun things to keep my hands and mind busy.
But still my mind wanders and I think about all that has been
in those years.
So much drama in this Dance of Life~
baptisms, church splits, new churches
school at home,private school, public school
old friends,new friends,family reunions~
all of the little events that combine to make a life
and still God knows them all!
He has been aware of every twist and turn and knows the outcome of it all.
When I was afraid, He comforted me
When I gave up ,He didn't
When I was overcome with grief, He soothed me
When I was alone, He was present with me
Even now as I stumble along, trying to find my feet again, at yet another stage of life,
He constantly reminds me that He is aware of my unsure steps, and He won't let go of me.
When I cry at the very memory of some of the drama of this dance
He quietly reminds me that He has never allowed me to endure more than I can bear
and that this "weird stage" of finding my feet in the "dance" doesn't upset Him at all-
He's leading....All I have to do is ...FOLLOW!