Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Growing pains....... again!!!

We've had bad luck with our kids - they've all grown up. ~Christopher Morley

What is a home without children? Quiet.
                        ~Henny Youngman

Really quiet sometimes!!!

This is a weird spot for me.....I keep thinking I have "crossed over" to the mostly adult world ~unscathed ~only to find myself ....lost again!!!!! And generally in an unexplainable puddle of tears! 

Don't worry , I keep asking myself the same thing- WHY??????

My life has been so routine for so long that I think I'm having trouble figuring out  which thing to do next - now that I actually have a choice. 
NOTHING is routine anymore- almost nothing anyway.
  To make it worse my energy is a little low and my endurance with people is not good!!!!
I'm guessing it's just a temporary step along the way... a way to cope with the change......I'm HOPING it's temporary!!! :)
I mean I love being with my kids and grandkids but I seem to be craving time completely radio, tv, friends..... just quiet time so I don't have to explain why on earth I'm crying- again!!!

Meanwhile........ the kids are spending a lot of time together and having a ball!
You can see it their faces can't you?
I am sooo proud of how these three stick together and watch each other's back- they really are a momma's 


Ruth said...

Autumn~I think it's a season many of us pass through. Life can be so tough. We take each day as it comes but deep down things build up. The damn finally breaks and out it pours. I hope that through your time alone you will find peace.


Bonne said...

You may want to get Susun Weed's Menopause book. I'll email you links to her E-zine. :)

Autumn said...

Thanks! Actually any non-thinking activity seems to be good-
You know things that have no real deep meaning- busy work.
I've been working a few extra hours( christmas season ya know), which is a nice diversion.

Sheryl-lyn said...

I was going to write a post about the cathartic nature of a good cry!! Every day I go to Youtube and watch Finally Home by Mercy Me and cry for 3 minutes. It feels great! Oh, I might be premenopausal though! LOL