Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Thinking........

I've been thinking a lot lately...about a lot of things.

The world is so big...and I want sooo badly for everyone in it  to be happy....
Not a bad thing but a bit naive and simplistic .
I have a rich full life...yet my heart aches for some that don't....I want to "fix" things so they can be happy!
I know it's not my job- but I struggle with it and have as long as I can remember.


I guess I started thinking about all of this during the loss of a friend, recently. He was probably near 70 and he was a spirited guy, full of fun and happy!

As we gathered at Robinsons Funeral home to say farewell,  I saw people I hadn't seen since I rode the school bus. That was a Looooong time ago! I realized how many things we had all done,seen and lived through and yet  here we all were again.
Life had been hard on some of us- but still we were here. Life had been good to others and they seemed to glow with success and happiness-
Even in that packed room I realized that all of us really are alone-in a way.
 I mean there are no repeats of people in creation- we are each unique and special in different ways. The things that make me happy would bore most people and vice versa.
I wondered how many of those people in that room were happy- truly happy.

I sometimes find myself trying to make someone's life happy and suddenly realize that MY HAPPY is not THEIR HAPPY!
I have to remind myself that God is perfectly able(and willing) to  take care of His own creation. He really doesn't need me to worry or fret for them- or myself.
People make me happy-seeing them live,overcome,endure and press on- all of it makes me happy.
The really fine thing is that He has given me an abundance of people-I don't exagerrate when I say ABUNDANCE either- and if I can encourage,help or cause one of them to smile and endure to the end and press on-my day is better. I pray everyday for wisdom to "just do my part" and trust God to do the HAPPY-MAKING.

I think God has given me the most precious gift in the world by sending the people I see day to day into MY life!
I thank God for YOU!!!!!!! You are one of the abundant blessings I enjoy!!!

If you catch me trying to "make you happy" remind me to let God do that!
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My friends have come unsought. The great God gave them to me. -Emerson
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Life is sweeter, stronger, fuller, more gracious thing for the friend's existence, whether he be near or far. If the friend is close at hand, that is best; but if he is far away he is still there to think of, to wonder about, to hear from, to write to, to share life and experience with, to serve, to honor, to admire, to love. -Ben

4 comments:

Ruth said...

Such a beautiful post. I can totally understand what you are saying. It is so hard to see others hurt. I like to "fix" things too and I realize I need to let go and let God take care of things. Only He knows what is best for each of us.
Ruth

Jami said...

I get what you're saying completely. It's always a tightrope walk for me with fulfilling God's purpose for me (gifts he has given me and wants me to use to his glory) and not taking over his "job" by putting my spin on it. He uses us though so that compassion and empathy you are feeling towards others is a true gift. It's just knowing how to deal with it without driving yourself nutso or draining yourself of happiness. Gosh, this is too deep for me so early! Happy day to you, sweet girl.
Jami

Sheryl-lyn said...

When I was younger I was always trying to fix everyone and make them happy. Just like you, I learned that this was God's work, and if I could help in some way, that was also God's hand in it. Took pressure off me and made me accept that sometimes other people have to go through their bad times to get ready for God's mission in their lives.

Autumn said...

I'm so glad you guys "get" me on this- my thoughts have been really spacey lately and I feel like I really can't communicate what I'm feeling.

I guess it's a nurturing thing- trying to make everyone happy.

Thanks all of you for stopping by!! I LOVE reading your comments!